For the past nine years, Greenland Dock has been my home. It's been in this corner of London that I started Aegis Productions, met a team of people who have supported my work, and got my feet under me as an adult. But now it's time to move on.
Homes are funny things. Their walls hold so many of our hopes and dreams as well is the inevitable heartbreaks that come our way. Perhaps because Greenland Dock was my first real place to settle as a young adult, I can’t help but see it peppered with memories: the top of the stairs where I cried when my parents separated, the black spot on the floor that my kitten attacked the first day I brought her home, the bedroom where I figured out I was in love for the first time in my life, the kitchen table where I coached so many roommates through their own crises. All of these memories are contained within the flat that I am now leaving.
And yet, over the past two years I’ve noticed a change in myself, a heart tugging of wanting more needing more space to grow. Needing a new adventure. No longer the twenty four year old who got off the boat at Greenland Dock on a winter’s night to go to a friend’s birthday party, I want to keep making my roots deeper, I want to work in a garden, go further in my relationships, and open up some exciting options for my future professionally and personally.
I have been lucky enough to find a place that has the design and layout will allow me to do this while still living with a disability. That's a rare find in the UK and a chance I could not pass up lightly. I take it with both hands knowing full well, it is always riskier to stay stagnant than to grow.
What’s coming in my life over the next few years? More books and plays? Almost certainly. A baby? That’s an option I can have in this new home. Sharing my home with refugees? God I hope so! A full time professional PA? This places gives me that too. A husband? A TV show? More involvement in politics and in charity work? A program to help women with disabilities help manage their periods and understand safe sex better?
All of this and more?
Amy March says in Little Women “We’ll all grow up someday, we may as well know what we want.” But part of growing up is discovering what exactly we do want, as well as finding the courage to go after it. And when you figure that out, and the opportunity presents itself for change, the best thing to do is to go with it, knowing that this change, like most others, will mean life will never be the same.
So be it.
The Period Route
March 24, 2017
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